making no sense
Friday, October 5, 20128:21 PM
Promos is finally over :D
I screwed up everything, including papers that most people found easier such as econs. I’m disappointed in myself for making terrible decisions while taking the exam papers and choosing the wrong questions. But at the same time I know it’s something that couldn’t be helped, and I felt like I put in the best I could during the weeks leading up to promos, so there’s nothing that I regret too deeply.
Right now, I’m determined to enjoy myself as much as I can before results are back ^^ No point killing yourself inside over something you can’t control!
They say life can’t be all good because if it were, happiness wouldn’t feel as real. I think when the going gets tough, it’s hard not to scorn such a mentality, but when times get better you start to appreciate such a sentiment. I am starting to learn that with every bad thing that happens in life, there’s always something good that comes out of it.
I know that sounds like something from a self-help book or whatever (and who am I kidding sooner or later I’ll be whining and complaining about life again) but honestly it feels refreshing to feel this way.
Too often this year I have bemoaned society for things like our education system and how flawed it is, but truth is, I’m just wasting my breath. At this point, we are too insignificant to do anything particularly substantial. We can only grit our teeth and go with the flow until we can work ourselves into a position where our say really matters, or when other people who feel the same way can do it for us.
Society isn’t going to change for us. More often than not, we are expected to change ourselves according to what society wants from us. This is one takeaway I have derived from my environment and the people around me this year, though that doesn't mean I agree with it. Maybe the real challenge lies in how we can preserve that little part of ourselves that make us who we are, in how we can hold it close to us so we never forget ourselves.