Graduating, pictures and other things
Sunday, November 6, 201110:17 PM
Graduation ceremony was two days back.
But today, I still don't feel anything overwhelming or all-consuming. And I feel guilty, like I've just killed a chicken or something. (don't really know why I used that example but whatever)
You see, whenever I open Twitter or Facebook, there's bound to be someone loudly proclaiming, "I love NY, I love you guys so much, I'm so going to miss you, I'll miss NY so much!" For people who truly feel that way, kudos to you for feeling so passionate and loyal to our dear secondary school that you simply have to voice it out. If I felt as passionate, I would probably do the same as well!
But for others? I think it's kind of hypocritical. Every one of us probably loves NY to bits because it's an all-girls environment, we feel proud of it, most of the teachers are awesome and the list goes on. But how many of us actually bother voicing out, during normal days and not Hallmark occasions, how much we cherish our school? I don't know the answer, but I know that I'm not someone who does that regularly. In fact, during times such as EOYs period, I actually feel some resentment in my heart, and I'm probably not the only one who feels this way from time to time. So does this mean we start gushing about our love and appreciation for the school only when it's graduation and we're about to leave for a new institution?
During normal school days, we can go through each day not even saying a single word to some of our classmates, and some of us don't even care. Because we already have our own group of close friends and it's easy to think that even if we never get close to others in the class, it doesn't matter as long as we maintain cordial ties and not become enemies. After all, not everyone gets along and not everyone can become buddy-buddy in just 2 years...it's natural. But now, because we're graduating and going to different classes, we're suddenly one big happy family and have to cry buckets because we have to part with one another?
I like 405. I know my JC class will never be like 405-maybe it'd be terrible and I'd be sorry for writing this-and I will definitely miss the feeling of working harmoniously together with everyone. But I don't get why some people have to behave like it's such a tragic tragedy to separate from the class, when they've never even made the effort to connect with many of their classmates in the first place. If you're not even close to somebody, would you feel extremely sorrowful if you won't see her every day? Heck, it's not like we're never going to see one another again!
And when I see pictures some people take together under the pretext of graduation, it makes me wonder just what goes on between them when the camera is off. They say a picture tells a thousand words, but sometimes it doesn't. It may paint a fabricated, artificial portrait of friendship and beautiful memories, when in reality, maybe the people in the photo don't even like each other. They snap a picture together just for the sake of having a photo together, you know? I know I'm probably generalising alot right now and it's their business whether they want to take a picture or not, but this is how I feel anyway. I think a photo only means alot when the people in it share real bonds that are strong and significant. Otherwise, it's just a kind of courtesy, or formality even, that wouldn't mean anything even if it were kept for a hundred years.
It could be that after a few days, weeks, or even months, suddenly I would feel an overwhelming sense of love and longing for NY, because I really did enjoy myself in the past 4 years. But until then, I think I will have to remain cynical and skeptical.